12 years ago!

hahaha this is interesting and worth blogging. believe it or not, this was taken about twelve years ago. yesssss twelve freaking years! haha and yes that was me, and my bestest bestest friend ever, fifie. haha macam samseng tak, amik gamba sambil minum teh o ais tuu.. with sleeves up pulak tu!

hahaha if that is how we looked like when we were 12, so how do we look like now?

like thisssssss...


any difference??? hahahaha


p/s : fie, i know this is embarrassing but i just don't care, this one is really worth keeping lah!

aa penat aaa

penat nak mampuihh la minggu niiii dari hari isnin lagi kot exam tak henti. everydayyyyy yer kawan2. esok ade lagi. 6 hari berturut2 without any mercy la kannnn...

cuba kira kalau setiap hari sy hanya tidur 4 jam, since sunday, dalam minggu ni berapa jam saya tido?

my answers to ur questions.

arif and i had a heart to heart conversation just now.. and he asked me questions, which i swear i have the answers, so many answers, but i just couldn't say it out loud..

will i become a good WIFE to him?

and my answer was only insya Allah.

i know we both have no idea how it is going to be 'di alam rumah tangga' nanti, tapi saya yakin, if we are doing it together, it will be nothing but great. i know it is not going to be easy, but to be a good wife to u i will try my best..

and will i become a good MOTHER to ur children?

insya Allah. it is way too early for me to be talking about this, but i guess if i am about to become ur wife, then it is going to be a part of my responsibilities to u isn't it?

and dear, maybe this is not the answer u were expecting, but i know, deep down inside, u know how i feel about u, about us and about this kan?

sumpah i am not good with words, cakap susah, tulis pun susah.

and now i am staring at the window blankly, with so many thoughts tapi tak boleh nak luahkan.

tu je la kot.

and owh, tak tak, kitorang bukan nye nak kawin lagi, lambat lagi. step by step ok.

tolong jawab tolong jawab.

i'm having my 3rd internals next week. that explains the silence.

just a quickie one, nak tanya ni,

orang bagi ape untuk hantaran kalau nak bertunang?

cepat bagi idea cepat.

mekasehhhhhh.

saya sudah dirisik ;)

hey all!

as some of you might already know, saya sudah dirisik!! by arif's family of course. haha macam la ade org lain yg nak pergi merisik lagi.

it was unplanned, as arif's mom thought that since i am here, why not pergi merisik je kan, sekadar nak penuhkan adat bak kata mak dia.

his mom talked to umi on thursday evening telling that they're coming over on the weekend, and since abah was away to jb on friday, they could only come today.

and umi of course la terus semangat naik angin nak masak itu ini, and we finally decided to serve ala high-tea, and the menu was roti jala with kuzi ayam, macaroni goreng and bistik daging and ayam. heaven i tell u!

and the guests were arif's parents, his aunt and uncle. well, i don't know what to say, but honestly, i feel so happy and grateful that our relationship is actually becoming sooo real, not that it is not real before, tapi macam dah betul2 la ntah la tak tau nak cakap macam mana hehe..

and insya Allah, we're getting engaged when i come back this april. let's pray that everything goes smoothly as planned ok?

on a different note, being at home for one week was a blast. everyone has been feeding me so well i think i must have gained at least 1 kg lah balik ni.

and yes we've named the new baby girl in the family Adelia Khaleeda bt Khairul Affan. main dgn baby adalah sgt best!

part yg paling tak best nye is..esok dah sunday, and i am going back to india tomorrow.. :(

ok peeps. tata for now!

of positive and negative.

saya tak suka la dikelilingi oleh orang2 yang hangin niiii. dah la kita tak tau pape, pastu tengok2 dia tengah hangin, taktau hangin kat sape pulak tu.
i don't know about others, but if it's me, bila tengok orang tu tengah hangin, especially someone that is closed to us, then we have no idea what it is about, i tend to question myself, is she/he angry at me? did i do something wrong to her/him? it is bad enough that i have to see the face yang masam mencuka, then i have to wonder to myself pulak tu kan.
tak suka la. boleh tak emo sorang2 je jangan affect others? u know, it's like i was having a good day all along tiba2 dia datang nak emo2 terus ruined ur mood hence ur day.
tak suka tau. like we used to say when i was talking with the girls the other day, it's like ur being surrounded by negativities. which i don't like!

on a different note, takpe2.. ada dua hari lagi nak balik. on saturday i'll be leaving this place yang penuh dengan sifat2 negatif ini dan kembali ke malaysia ke pangkuan orang2 yang positif! yessssssss bai korang baii!

she's a new year baby!

alhamdulillah, my sister kakliz has safely given birth to a baby girl today at 820 p.m.
talked to umi just now, and she is yet to see the baby.
i'll upload the pics here if there is any ok.
sooooo excited to go home! dah lama tak main ngan baby.
welcome to the world, ______ (tak tau nama lagi). cik ida will see u in one week time!

happy 2010!

happy new year everyone!

so many ups and downs i have been through in 2009, of which i will not be listing out here, but of all, i am sooooooo happy and proud with our relationship, and insya Allah kalau dipanjangkan umur, dimurahkan rezeki dan dipermudahkan segala urusan, we are taking our relationship to the next level in this brand new 2010!

and i am sooooo excited!

adoyaaiii

hai guys!

i was not feeling well these few days, i guess this homesick thingy is really making me fall sick hehe.
i had the end-of-posting exam for ophthalmology today, and this will be our last ophthal posting since we're sitting for the final this coming march. lepas tu, so long OPHTHALMOLOGY!

anyway, what brings me to write today is because of what happened to us this afternoon. we were in the middle of our lecture when dr murthi had to interrupt and instructed us to go back home right away, and the bus had already arrived to bring us. he told that there was a riot going on on the road and we're told not to go out today. macam scary je kan. and kitorang yang ada transport sendiri ni dia siap suruh ikut bontot bas la to make sure nothing will happen. takut tak takut tak? tapi kitorang tak ikut bas pun, just jalan ramai2 je and alhamdulillah selamat la sampai rumah.

and along the way from the hospital to my place, kitorang tengok la semua kedai pun tutup. and there were stories saying that some people were throwing stones la into the kedai yang tak tutup tu. even mcdonalds pun tutup and there was a friend of mine kena kurung dalam kedai sebab tak sempat keluar pastu kedai tutup. hihi

so when i reached home, i went to a mobile store nearby to get my hp recharged (kedai kat kawasan rumah kitorang tak tutup sebab rumah kitorang dah kat dalam2 so org2 gila tu tak tau kot). so i tanya la makcik recharge tu, what actually happened kan. to tell u the truthhhhh...

apparently, one of the karnataka "superstar" died today due to heart attack, and they were throwing the riot to pay respect to him. like what the helllllllll?????? pelakon korang mati, korang nak merusuh2 apesal la bodohhhhhhhhhhhh. kau merusuh la lapan belas tahun pun takdenye orang tu nak hidup balik la bangang. can u imagine how stupid these people are? eeee tak boleh nak describe la macam mana amazed nye kitorang dengan kebodohan diorang ni.

korang boleh imagine tak, sebab sorang pelakon mati, semua kerja has to be stalled, semua kedai tutup, i am not sure about the banks and offices. but tak ke benda tu semua merugikan diorang sendiri? patut la tak maju, bangang sangat,

but us, on the other hand, mesti la enjoyyyy kan. dapat balik awal kotttt. dah la i was sleepy like badak sumbu in the class after gobbling sebijik anti histamine, tau2 dr murthi suruh balik sekarang, terus bangun terpacak la kan. huuuiii seronok kot, kalau tiap2 hari ade pelakon diorang mati kan bagusssss.

hihi.

tu baru karnataka punye superstar, entah super dekat mana la kan berlakon pun pakai kain pelikat tak pakai baju. cuba korang imagine apa akan jadi kalo shah rukh khan mati? setahun kot kitorang cuti. haha

p/s: karnataka is a state of india, in which bangalore belongs to.

aaaaa this is gonna sound mengada2 but i dont care its my blog korang nak baca, baca. taknak baca sudah.... i'm soooo homesick sangat la nak balikkkkk.. its like my otak has been completely blocked by somekind of this feeling pastu takleh nak baca buku pun... aaaaa aaaa aaaaaa... nak nangis je ni.. but i actually got my ticket to go back already haha im just mengada tak sabar nak tunggu tarikh balik je ni. ada 12 hari je lagi woot woot!!

aaaaa

am so homesick wanna go home sooooo badly.... the best deal i could get will cost me around rm1000,pretty cheap isn't it? but i'm gonna have to transit in singapore, then change the airline etc..

should i go back? berbaloi kah?

the one with no title.

well it seems like everyone is talking about new resolution. i won't be making any since the old resolution pun entah ke mana kan.

butttt, of all, i would really really want to save a lot of moneyyyyy. for what the money is tu belakang kira. u know like when u have a lot of money, everything seems possible kan. yeah yeah i know money won't buy everything la happiness la, but at least it can cure my sadness. hurm entah ape la merepek ni kan.

anyway, i've been very busy lately with ophthalmology presentation and stuffs. and i am trying to get my lazy ass into the study hard mode again tapi mcm impossible je. with the cold weather, it's very hard to stay up late at night and u know me, to get up early in the morning is another impossible thing to do la kan.

and yes, it's almost 2010 and believe it or not, i'm 24 next year! a perfect age to get married don't you think haha dah dah korang jgn nak buat cerita pastu sibuk2 duk tanya kat kelas ok.

taaa~~

kesian saya.

hello everyone!

i was wide awake at 5am today as i've been sleeping for almost 12 hours. yes, it happens when u don't have to get up for prayers ;p

ah it's only 19th of the month, and i cant barely wait for its end. I AM TOTALLY BROKE! yeah i do have some saving, and i can just borrow it sekejap and nanti bayar balik bila duit masuk, but u know macam tak best je tengok duit saving jadi makin sikit. :(

so many unfortunate things happening around me this month, that explains everything. kena tukar battery kereta la, then the tyre macam flat then i had to replace the tube, then i've started using HL again (wait, that's not an unfortunate event kan hehe)... pastu buat pulak hari tu masa duit masuk the USD rate went down, so duit macam dapat kurang from usual.

and our 3rd internal assessment which i was freaking out of this few weeks have been postponed to february! clap clap. which brings me to another point, nak balik malaysia la macam niiiiii. this means i can go back la this early jan kan. but the ticket was freakingly mahal la pulak. terpaksa tahan je la kan :( unless tiba2 je elaun buku masuk ;p USD 550 you allll! haha kecoh je. macam dapat sejuta je.

tension la macam ni. semua juniors dah balik. tinggal my batch je terhegeh2 kena pergi class. kesian kan kitorang. dah la nak tengok Avatar pastu tiket dah sold out, pastu rasa macam nak tengok New Moon lagi sekali, tapi tiket still mahal lagi, so tunggu la lama2 skit lagi so that the tiket dah murah. tengok, orang dah miskin tau nak tengok wayang pun kena tunggu tiket murah. kesian tak kesian tak?

ok la people, nak makan biskut marie cicah nescafe. kesian kan orang miskin. :(

dear parents, help ur daughter please.

phew.

another 3 weeks left for the third IA. omg omg.

do u think there is any way that i can finish covering ophthalmology, ENT and community medicine in the given time?????

semua chapter pulak tuuu.

adoyaiii.

mati la mati la.

and btw, im going to watch new moon this friday!!! lame, i know. ahh tak kisah la orang lain dah lama tengok. kata kat india baru keluar. yang penting is i already booked the ticket!

benci.

do u know how it feels when ur past keeps haunting u back?

i do, and it sucks. trust me.

it was a one time mistake, which i regret a lot, and it hits me now and then, to see my loved ones hurt because of it.

to those i love, i wish i could tell u how sorry i am. u know, if i could turn back the time, that mistake will be the only thing i would want to change.

but that was it, things already happened, and i am regretting it till the end of my life, i swear.

i'm still amazed of how stupid i could be, and i should have been more realistic.

to arif and my family, i am so sorry, i really am.


dan saya rasa seperti mahu membunuh orang.

one minute we're okay, the next minute, we're definitely not.

is this normal?

we better figure this out, because i'm getting tired of it, very tired.

burppppp.

thanks to ibu asri and mama anies, i am kekenyangan macam badak sumbu.

nasi dagang, satay and nasi himpit with kuah kacang, daging bbq, and lontong, with puding laici yg sedap.. ah too heaven la i tell u.

next year raya haji nak paksa abah umi raya kat sini la pulokkkkkkk.

mesti lembu sedih.

hello everybody.

seems like everyone in malaysia is busy preparing for raya haji. called abah just now and he indeed was on his way to the bank to draw the money nak bayar qurban esok. hehe.. takde kaitan pun but the point is semua orang pun sibuk nak raya kan. :( yet kitorang kat sini ada kelas lagi esok tau. as u know, kat sini kan dia punya calendar islam lambat sehari. so we'll be celebrating it on saturday.

anyhooo.. i did something setuuupid today. not that stupid i think, more of careless kot... hehe... well, pagi tadi i had clinical, so we left to the hospital quite early in the morning, and entah mimpi ape entah, pagi tadi turned out to be sangat berkabus or berjerebu i pun tak tau lah. u know like yang sangat2 tebal tu, i couldnt even see what's on the roadside. so i switched my headlights on.
so i drove... to the hospital... safely... parked my car.. masuk hospital... pergi ward rounds... duk OPD bla bla bla... sampai la pukul 12...

during our lunch break, i was going to the surau to perform my zohor, when rempit and anies told me that i left my headlights on. damn it, it's been 4 damn hours dah kot...

as expected la kan, the battery went dead. adoyaiii...

luckily nadzirah was on her way from the college to the hospital, and i asked for her favour to get me a mechanic to come over.

ok so the mechanic came and repair la ketung ketang ketung ketang, so hidup la kereta saya. pastu dia cakap i have to leave the engine running for at least one hour, or i have to drive for a distance of at least 30km, to get the power recharged. manenye nak drive 30km kan rumah ngan hospital pun dekat cikonet je.

so dapatlah alasan, ala terpaksa la keluar gi tengok wayang macam ni. haha.. so me and neela went to watch the christmas carol tadi, which was sangat tak best langsongggg korang jangan lah tengok.. we didn't even finish watching it...

pastu balik rumah. pastu call abah la cerita semua2 battery kereta kong la ape la mechanic dtg bwk battery la ape sume tu. pastu abah kata, to be safe, i better bring the car to the workshop to make sure that the power is fully recharged, and if it's not, i have to get it recharged. betul ke macam tu? macam tak byk masa la nak gi anta ni..

ok dah cerita pasal kereta.

on the other hand, i am on my mission to save a lottttt of money. i started last month, and proudly to say i managed to save quite ok laaaa kan for me yang memang susah nak jimat ni.
but then, i was thinking on taking herbalife again, sebabbbbb... saya sudah gemuk balik, and i have BIG plan tahun depan which requires me to lose lots of lemak. tapi, masalahnya, bila guna herbalife, nanti duit habis banyak la pulak, but if i tak guna herbalife tak kurus la pulak. ha macam mana tu? macam mana nak kurus and at the same time nak save duit? jangan suruh saya tak makan, memang tak la kan, nak puasa sunat pun termengah2..

ok lah people. good night, selamat hari raya aidil adha ok. jangan makan daging banyak2 tau, red meat contains very high level of cholesterol, no good no good~~~ hehe..

taaa~~

meraung2.

i..
elida hanan,
suddenly feel like going home..

of course there'll be no raya haji for me here..

sob sob..

jom kawan2 kita bersemangat kentallllllllll.. bertahan sehingga april!

untuk renungan bersama :)

Hari-hari yang diharamkan berpuasa adalah:

1. Hari Syak iaitu hari yang apabila ia ragu tarikh sebenar Ramadhan (30 Sya'ban). Ini berdasarkan hadith dari Ammar bin Yasir r.a yang bermaksud :
   " Sesiapa berpuasa pada hari syak, sesungguhnya dia telah menderhaka Abu Al-Kasim (Muhammad) s.a.w."
2. Hari Raya Aidilfitri dan Aidiladha iaitu 1 Syawal dan 10 Zulhijjah. Ini berdasarkan hadith dari Abu Hurairah r.a yang bermaksud :
   " Bahawa Rasullullah s.a.w menegah berpuasa pada dua hari iaitu hari raya fitri dan hari raya adha "
3. Hari-hari tasyrik iaitu 11, 12 dan 13 Zulhijjah. Ini berdasarkan hadith daripada Imam Muslim dalam sahihnya daripada Nabi s.a.w yang bermaksud :
   " Hari-hari Mina merupakan hari-hari makan dan minum juga hari mengingati Allah s.w.t "
4. Hari Haid dan Nifas.
5. Ulama' Mazhab Syafii berpendapat adalah haram berpuasa pada separuh akhir bulan Sya'ban yang mana ada di antaranya hari Syak melainkan mereka yang biasa berpuasa sepanjang tahun atau bagi mereka yang berpuasa pada hari tertentu seperti hari Isnin dan Khamis yang puasanya berkebetulan dengan hari selepas 15 Sya'ban atau puasa nazar yang tertanggung ke atasnya atau puasa qada' atau fardhu ataupun puasa yang bersambung dengan puasa selepas Sya'ban dan puasa sebelumnya walaupun satu hari sebelum 15 hari Sya'ban kerana berdasarkan hadith yang bermaksud :
   
   " Apabila telah tiba pertengahan bulan Sya'ban, janganlah kamu berpuasa " (Riwayat Ahmad)
   
   Mazhab Hanbali dan mazhab-mazhab lain tidak berpegang kepada hadith ini kerana ia da'if menurut pendapat Imam Ahmad.
   
   Sumber : Fiqh Islami wa Adilatuh - Dr. Wahbah Zuhaili
   
6. Puasa bagi orang yang bimbangkan dirinya binasa kerana puasa tersebut.

Diantara hari-hari yang disunatkan untuk berpuasa dalam Islam adalah seperti berikut:

1. Puasa enam iaitu puasa yang dijalankan selama enam hari dalam bulan Syawal. Puasa ini dilakukan sehari selepas 1 Syawal sama ada secara berturut-turut atau tidak.
2. Puasa awal bulan Zulhijjah dari 1 haribulan hingga 8 haribulan Zulhijjah.
3. Puasa pada hari Arafah iaitu pada 9 haribulan Zulhijjah.
4. Puasa pada 9 haribulan Muharram.
5. Puasa pada Hari Asyura iaitu pada 10 haribulan Muharram.
6. Puasa dalam bulan Rejab mengikut kemampuan berpuasa.
7. Puasa dalam bulan Sya'ban kecuali pada hari syak iaitu 30 haribulan Sya'ban.
8. Puasa pada tiap-tiap hari isnin dan khamis.
9. Puasa tiga hari pada tiap-tiap hari bulan Qamariah.

just a friendly reminder. especially buat tuan punya blog ni sendiri la kan...hehe..