Friday, February 25, 2011

cold feet

dah makin dekat ni makin cuak kan..

tapi..coming to think about it... kita nak kahwin ni nak buat benda baik kan, ibadat.. kalau niat tu betul.. insya Allah semuanya diberkati-Nya kan...

i know it's not going to be easy... lepas ni tanggungjawab dah bertambah.. tambah2 lagi given the situation saya tengah belajar lagi kan... tapi u know, when i made the decision to get married, i have weighed all the pros and cons.. not to forget with doa berterusan semoga keputusan yang saya buat ni betul...

i know some of us maybe are not yet ready.. tapi... i don't think it is necessary to express everything out, kadang2 nampak seolah2 u are trying to scare the shit out of me.. u know i'm freaking out, and what i need from a friend is a support, bagi semangat, ketenangan tu... bukannya kata2 yang lagi menakutkan saya..

anyway, it's my two cents. maybe it's the emotion talking. takde tuju kat sapa2.. when u're about to get married nanti, u'll get what i feel..

i think it's the cold feet.. and when u have one, what u really need is a friend to tell u there's nothing to worry about, there's nothing to scare of, that i'm making the right decision..

that's all..

kalau taknak tenangkan saya pun, just stay quiet, be a good listener, it's better. because all the words u're saying are hurting me more than u know..

i'm doing a right thing, i know i am. so, once again, stop scaring the shit out of me..

saya nak balik malaysia. i no longer want to be here at this particular moment..

saya sedih.

Sunday, February 13, 2011

the random things

if u ever noticed... i've put up a ticker kat sebelah tu kan... hehe another 2 months to go... kejap je celik mata pejam mata...

anyway..

i just finished my internal assessment last friday.. dah habis exam ni baru lah boleh sambung pikir balik pasal kahwin and stuff kan... u know juggling up between getting married and study is not an easy thing to do. at least for me.. tambah2 lagi duk jauh ni kan..

tengah otak stress gila study surgery... damn teringat kek tak tempah lagi... elok duk dengar lagu sambil study gynae, eh lagu ni best jugak kalau pasang utk montaj... u see?

but alhamdulillah la kan i think i managed to put aside kejap pasal kawin masa nak exam hari tu... hari ni baru start terpk balik apa lagi nak buatkan..

alhamdulillah jgk for the next 7 weeks dah takde exam.. only end of posting exams... tak tension sangat la kan hopefully..

hurmm.. tetiba blank dah taktau nak cakap ape haha boleh tak?

ahhh one more thing...

my lil sister just started her own blogshop jual shawls and all..

do drop by ok?

http://hijab-intrend.blogspot.com/

taaa~

 
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